Sunday, September 28, 2008

I miss her...

I can't believe its been 4 years (Mon) that we lost Emma. Sometimes it seems longer but days like today when Dan and I have been remembering, it seems like just yesterday. It seems like we were just getting the news, driving frantically to Grand Rapids to figure out what was wrong, and then delivering this perfectly tiny beautiful girl who was already with Jesus. I wonder now who she would look or act more like, Ellie or Aubrey or would she have a look all her own?? I wonder how it would be with three crazy girls running around instead of two. So much good has come out of having Emma, sharing her story with other moms who have lost their babies has helped me and I hope helped them. Its been too many moms, that is for sure. I don't know why but I thought after it happened to us then it didn't have to happen to anyone else we know. Geesh, was I wrong. Maybe I am just more aware of it but its too often. I don't know why God takes babies/kids away too soon but I know he has good plans for us all. He loves us all and will take care of those kiddos until we meet again. I know shes happy and safe and that is such a relief as a mom but I do wish we could have watched all our girls grow up together. He did take Emma but has also given me two other beautiful healthy happy girls. I praise Him and thank Him for that! Those girls and my husband mean everything to me. Happy Birthday my little angel!!



"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

4 comments:

Katie said...

thanks for sharing your story. you have helped me through the journey of losing a child and i am sure others too. i am so thankful to you for that.

We miss you Emma!

Stephanie said...

Val, thanks for sharing your thoughts about Emma. The events of those days seem like they happened yesterday and in other aspects like it was 100 years ago. The Lord has definently blessed you with 2 adorable girls and one angel to watch over you all! Love you!

LJFredricks said...

Val, I stumbled on your blog a while ago and have been lurking ever since. I think you probably remember me from Hamilton CRC! Thanks for sharing your story. You and Katie make me apprieciate how small my problems are and how to rely on God when something big does come up.

Jen said...

Val, what a touching story. I am so sorry you lost Emma, I can't imagine what it's like to lose a child. I have known a lot of people that have gone through a similar situation and it's so hard to understand why God lets things like this happen.